Fearless | What It Means To Me

Wednesday night I was asked to share a blurb in church between leading songs about fearlessness and what that means to me. My first initial thought was "I don't deserve to talk about being fearless right now much less share something inspiring for the whole congregation to respond too because if I'm being honest some days I still feel like the most fearful person on this planet", but I said okay and prayed about what I should say.

If you know me, you know I am a woman with a lot of words. As I've pondered and prayed about this word fearless (the word I chose for this school year) I realized A.) that thought was the enemy at work... and B.) Maybe I was the right person to be asked about being fearless, because I've known great season of fear and I've known great seasons of fearlessness.

This morning I only shared part of what's been on my heart for the last 3 days.

Here's what the holy spirit and I came up with.

Fearless to me is not the absence of fear, but the presence of courage.

It's the courage to step out in faith even when the odds ( and maybe even my friends) are against me.

It's the courage to approach the cross again and again, even when I don't feel like I deserve to.

Fearlessness is the courage to pray radical things and believe that God hears them, that he cares, and that he is capable of doing them.

It's the courage to be vulnerable in the best kind of way.

It's the courage to trust God in the waiting believing that he will provide all of your needs.

Fearlessness is taking a good hard look at yourself (the good, the bad, and the ugly) and learning to accept it for what it is.

It's being willing to be moldable and changeable to better yourself.

It's the courage to stand alone and be a minority for what you think or believe and being okay with it.

Sometimes Fearlessness is actually feeling lots of fear, but choosing to push through it and keep going on because its what we choose to do with our emotions and doubts that makes or breaks us.

It's picking up your bible when all you want to do is go to sleep so that this feeling or problem looming over you will go away.

It's calling a trusted friend to spill that one negative thought that keeps bumping around in your head, keeping you from enjoying life to the fullest, and having them point you back to truth to remind you of the gospel.

Sometimes its saying I'm not okay and I really need to figure myself out before I press into other people.

Fearlessness is choosing to forgive and trust again after you've been hurt. It doesn't mean to be naive and unwise,  but use what is in your past to make smarter decisions in your future.

It's the moment the doctor says "You need surgery sooner than we thought" and choosing to trust God when the risk is great.

It is choosing to trust that small voice that spoke promises over you over the loud voices that cause you to doubt.

Fearless to me is less about eliminating fear in my life, but more about choosing and learning how to trust God with each fear that comes my way (past, present, and future).

It's finding God as the foundation under all of my weaknesses.