Today marks two months post op.
In someways I can't believe its only been 2 months. Surgery some days seems like months ago, but other days I am proud I've made it this far. The more that I think about the past two months, the more I realize just how insane this whole situation has been.
Today I almost got stuck on the floor trying to take a picture of a coke bottle for class. I can honestly say this surgery has challenged my photography in more ways than my professors ever could have. I currently am not supposed to lay on my stomach still until my doctors clear me. 2 weeks ago I fell and hurt my knee (my back is fine!) on the side walk. Yesterday I reopened that wound hitting it on my bed post. You can image the difficulty of getting low perspectives when you can't lay on your stomach, get on and off the floor excessive amounts of times, or get on your knees to lower the perspective either. Professors here don't want to be bothered with photos at eye level (which are currently my favorite because they involve the least amount of bending (or lack of) in my life haha). I am doing the best I can, but I am still growing.
Im not really a sit on the side lines kind of girl, or at least I wasn't. Now you can find me sitting off to the side in a chair with my pillow. I am trying to look for ways for God to use that to his benefit. While its not my usual style to be reserved and lagging behind Im trying to find joy in the ways I can and make myself useful.
I am however, loving the days I am completely pain free and how comfortable I am in my body.
I am loving how every week I still am managing somehow to get stronger and feel better.
I am loving meeting more beautiful people here at Winthrop.
I love how the days I doubt this whole process God has given me a very tangible reassurance this summer that still fills me with warmth and wonder to think about.
I love to try on dresses and show my scar with pride.
I love when people ask me about my pillow or my scar I get to tell them about how insane modern medicine is and how awesome doctors are.
Lastly, I love that God is teaching me how to sit on the sidelines no mater how discouraging it can be at some times. I love that he is teaching me to have moments of quiet and contentment where I am at currently.
The Sideline is not a bad thing. Its a place for new perspective.
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